Happy New Year!
May this year bring you everything you desire and more!
As I am writing this love letter, I feel peace and calm within me after experiencing a not-so-calm holiday season.
If you remember, I took the last 2 weeks of December off and truth be told, it didn’t turn out how I expected it to at all. My mind wasn’t busy thinking about anything and therefore some of my subconscious programming (old unhealed childhood wounds) came up which resulted in me having anxiety.
Luckily for me, anxiety is something that I very well know (I used to have crippling anxiety) and I had just bought Russell Kennedy’s book Anxiety Rx. Unlike a few years ago, I didn’t try to fight against it or ease the feeling by entertaining my brain with other things. I embraced the anxiety and the feelings in my body. I didn’t fight. I surrendered.
Surrendering just like letting go is not something that used to be easy for me, on the contrary. But that’s the only way out. No matter what you are going through. In this life, there are many things that are out of our control. However, we can control how we react to them. And, the first step to that is to allow yourself to feel your emotions and process them in a healthy way.
At the end of last week, I was told some very happy news but my ego got deeply hurt to the point I cried for over 10 hours straight (and I’m not a crier!). It wasn’t so much the news that made me cry but the build-up to that announcement (remember the old childhood wounds?). While the pain was extremely uncomfortable during all the time I was feeling it, it turned out to be as relieving as it was uncomfortable! When the pain and hurt were processed, I felt like a huge block of old programming had been released!
That’s also when I realized that the life that we are experiencing right now is just a tiny drop in the ocean of a soul’s experience. When I have conversations with my soul, sometimes things that matter to me don’t matter to her at all for the simple fact that in the grand scheme of things, it truly is nothing at all.
Now you may be wondering what’s the link to set the intention for the new year.
Well, I’ve decided to care less about things that are out of my control. I’ve decided to keep taking actions that feel right to me and trust and surrender, but not fight for something anymore. I trust that the right things will come to me and that I will always find a way. But again, not by sitting on my couch and waiting for things to happen. No, I do have to take action but I will not scatter my energy anymore doing all the things. I’ll do what feels right to me, what brings me joy and the rest will follow!
Have you set the intention for this year?